Nostalgia

So, I was cleaning out an old memoir tub of things from elementary thru highschool.

I came across a poem that had no name on it, but it was clearly typed by myself or someone close to me. Knowing my family, it was either me or a sister, but I don't remember the poem and my sister knows she didn't write it (I called her).

Anyway... reading over it, if it indeed was mine, makes me wonder what was going on that I felt so ... well... alone.

"In My Head"

I sit alone
and try to hide.
I appear a clone
but I'm different inside.
I got the hair,
I got the clothes,
I really care
but nobody knows.
Alone in my world
no one can relate,
like dreams that have curdled
this is destiny,
my fate.
My thoughts are vast,
my opinions strong
my words will last,
when my body is gone.
I sit in the back
with an evil glare,
in confidence I lack,
friendship too afraid to share.
How'd you get this way
one may inquire
the way they said things they say
the way they looked, with eyes of fire.
I never fit in
they didn't like me much.
To be me was a sin,
imagination was my crutch.
To coping with life,
to coping with pain
Through suffering and strife,
to feeling insane.
I saw their rage
They didn't like my tone.
They put me in a cage,
now I'm dying

.......alone

If this was something I wrote (though I guess I kinda gotta accept it as mine - one line seems very familiar "dreams that have curdled") thinking back, it sorta feels like how I felt when we first moved to Alaska, and Mom stayed in Iowa for an extra few months to get things taken care of and the house sold.

I hat no friends, was living with my step-father and step-brother, and we were *NOT* getting along.

Impatient!

So I have a horrible addiction to Skip Beat! (manga).

The next chapter's supposed to be released on the 18th, but the raws have already come out.
Raws are nice and all, gives us some leeway for speculation, but when there's so much talking and no clear ACTION, I can't figure out a THING that's going on!

It's times like this (and every day another Manga's raws come out that I can't read! *cough*TheOne*cough*) that I'm tempted to learn Japanese.

I'm just too much of a slacker though.

Shirayuri, Mellylemon, please hurry!

Anxious!

I'm very anxious today and I don't know why. I'm anxious as if I'm waiting for something, but I don't know what and have nothing planned today.

Needed a place to write things out, thus, this blog.

I saw a news headline on Google News today about the SciFi channel changing it's name to SyFy. A play on slang and words I suppose.

The article was chastising SyFy for the name change saying they left out the vowels. Maybe so, but the writer of that article needs to go back to second grade, when we learned that Y may count as a vowel as well. Get an education and know your facts before you post crap like that! I can imagine all the grammar teachers out there and their agitation.